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Day #95

"-so speak greek!

                       -but i don't have anyone to speek greek with!

-speak with your-self!

                      -how?if i speak with myself they'll think that i'm crazy!

       -so what?!You are crazy!!"

Finally,after 3 months living in abroad, someone actually understand the real character of me.I never believed that a foreign language could be a barrier to understanding the character of another person. But yeah,it does. I can't express myself in french.I think everyone thinks that i'm quiet,antisocial and not a party animal. Three things that they are completely opposed to my character. 
Me, quiet??!No,no,no! 
    I speak french and yeah i can communicate, i can participate in a dialogue but no i can't be me. No one understand my jokes, or my sarcasm, or the times that i want to do and say crazy stuffs. No one except my new friend. 

   Yesterday i had soooo much fun. I realised who i am and how much i have missed being me.The little things, are the most powerful. I missed being crazy, and don't care about anyone and nothing. And with this girl, that we don't ressemble a lot, i feel that i can be myself. She listens me.She doesn't ignore me.She is there. That's the most amazing thing. The point is to find people that we're completely different. 

The same, is boring.

   So yesterday we went to an exposition,that we don't really enjoy, so we decided to leave and go to the nearest commercial center. Here in Lille, the winter is definately here. The temperatures are so low, that we loose our envie to go out. And I, personally, hate cold. And i moan a lot. But i thought that i have to stop moaning and find a way to resist. Because i'm Human Sunshine,according to Stargirl (my new friend). And as human sunshine, i have to find the sparkl in everything that annoying me,or that i hate. And then, change them, so i can live with them. I have to find a way to like the cold. Basically i thought to become one with the cold. I will start drink granitas so much that my body temperature start to fall...and then i'll be cold as much as the cold outside :p .
Or i can start drinking.Yeah and we arrived at the commercial center and we bought granitas (resistance) , and we enter to a photo booth and we take pictures and then....she had to go,because we're both tired and we've both so much work to do. 
But yeah i laughed so much,woop woop! 

Now unfortunately, back to my stress. I have to finish a dossie with a difficult subject and i'm freaking out. Jesus, the person that said that if you're an erasmus, you don't have to study,said the biggest lie ever!Thankfully in two weeks,i'll go back to home,so patience,is the only thing that i have to do. Oh and study.
Patience and study.